WEEK 3: 12/11 - 18/12

Do you remember I told you once I always lacked enthusiams to complete something global? And you know what? I am already lacking it, even though it's just a third week of my year to change. Here, I see two solutions. First, I can find excuses why I did not get a step closer to achieving my goals and Second I can just pull up, analyze my mistakes and keep on getting my life better.

The last week was not the best in my life, mostly because I was ill. All that fever and cough made me a kind of disturbed from anything but my health and well-being. Besides, my hysband also got ill so we were trying to take care of each other and our cat. It was awful.

When I got better, I began drawing for stocks. Maybe because of dull weather we have here or because I draw on my tablet, I do not feel like using markers and sketchbook. They are a kind of abandoned :(
On the other hand, I have drawn two sets for St. Valentine's day. But! The problem is that now I have to edit all of that and upload to Shutterstock. Or Adobe Stock, I am still unsure about this one.

Other than that, I am on a crossroad with my job. Recently I have been approached by a client, with whom we had payment troubles (I had to literarly beg for payment) and offered me a cooperation. The payment is relatively high. And the task is not that difficult, it is my specialization, all in all. BUT. I am worried whether I would have the same payment issues again. I am still thinking of agreeing to cooperation with them, and it does bother me. I mean, I am not sure how to act right, what will be good for me. And the question here is not about money, I can earn them anytime, and I do earn enough for my family and myself. I am not in that urgent need for money. The issue here is about my well-being. I am trying to avoid stress to feel comfortable. I do not even argue with my husband, just because I do not want to cause inconveniences.

In summer, I completed a course, where a speaker told about self-ecology. It is not ebout environmental protection, it is about what makes you, your inner self, comfortable. It is essnetial to look at everything you do through this prism, through the prism of self-ecology, how your body and sould would feel, would not you feel exhausted and empty after it is all over? That is what I am trying to figure out these days before agreeing to the project.

Hopefully, I will make all the decisions on this one and report my involvement or non-involvement in the project the next week

XOXO,
ElfElfen